I can't allow myself to think I'm going to have him.

No, she would not allow herself to think about that now.

I couldn't allow myself to think too much about it.

I couldn't find anything within myself that allowed me to think about my future.

In fact, she wasn't even going to allow herself to think about it.

Maybe he was doing something right, Jack allowed himself to think.

Perhaps she already was, if only he would allow himself to think in such terms.

For the first time she allowed herself to think of what had gone wrong.

And still did, when he allowed himself to think about it.

But she couldn't allow herself to think about that yet.